Now I’m beginning to think that all of my drowsiness and excessive sleeping is because of an increase in my Gabapentin some months back.
My anxiety is less these days so I am thinking of cutting back just a little on the Gabapentin to see if the sleepiness improves.
I see the doctor next week and this way I will have more information to give her.
The effects of decreasing that medication.
My world was turned upside down and now the dust is settling.
It was like my house of cards was knocked down.
I was clinging to friends, pleading to anyone who would listen.
It frightened some off, others stayed for awhile.
Some told me that it didn’t happen.
So I take stock of what I have left and where I’m going from here.
In my experience its not always wise to go back because things are not always the same and your good memory can be changed and not for the better.
Leave good things as they are.
Like as in my friendships. I tend to think that the relationship is closer than it actually is and that’s because it’s me who loves them more.
So who am I going to be now?
I think people are tired from hearing from me and I don’t blame them.
God gave me more than I could handle.
So I look to staying indoors and tending to much self-care and making my home like a paradise.
I have a beautiful little companion dog.
Activities and much to do like I’m in a good book now the first of a series, The Cape May Garden(Book one), by Claudia Vance.
I make sure to put on these tiny little earrings of turquoise for just a splash of color around my face.
The earrings were part of a necklace set that I had really purchased for the sake of the necklace.
I am remembering to use a little cologne also.
I have many self care items. I’m good at buying them but I have to remember to actually use them.
I’m into beverages whether it be hot or iced-coffee, regular tea or sleepy time before bed.
I feel a ‘part of’ in certain online communities. I really bond and become warm feeling when reading from my favorite writers who are familiar to me.
As for getting back out into the world who am I going to introduce myself to be?
A lot has happened.
A lot has changed.
I think I want to be both a positive and energetic person, who lives very frugally, who is independent and happy with her companion dog.
I think I would like to become more silent and mysterious rather than the nervous nelly or chatty Cathy that I could sometimes be.
The anxiety has been aging me.
I think I will try to sit still and just be.
My wish is to be happy just being me.
Rise Above Refuge By Ruby 